Accidental Ambivalence

An Unintentionally Cryptic Post

Sometimes, a girl wants to keep something to herself, away from everyone else for the moment. I'm not usually that girl; I tend to prefer to demand the attention and give everyone all of the details of a situation at once. Now, however, I think I will be better served to keep it to myself.

Last night, I received a lovely affirmation from a man who barely knows me. He told me that upon first meeting, I was "cute and interesting." Upon first meeting, I usually come across as snooty (because I tend to be quiet and observant when I first meet someone) or overbearing (in those moments when I let what I really think fly). Hearing from someone that neither was true - at least in that particular situation - was nice.

I like the idea of holding out and seeing what there is to see. More and more I'm liking the ideas of anticipation and jumping right into something that might make me uncomfortable. I've been living in a box for far too long, and it's getting to be too much for me. Maybe if I take the chance and jump off the precipice, something great will come from it. And, honestly, can anything too terrible come from it?

Labels: boys, personal growth

posted by nicalyse @ 6:32 PM