Giving Up
I hate giving up and giving in. I hate to admit that something - or someone - is stronger or has gotten the better of me.At this moment, after spending my night in a bar in a super-cute dress with carefully chosen accessories and new shoes and fabulous eyeliner, I feel defeated.
I find myself wondering if this is all worth it. I find myself wondering if I'm capable of letting go and letting in someone who isn't my "type." I find myself wondering who this "myself" bitch even is.
I give up on avoiding the funk. I'm going to dive right in and wallow. I'm not sure if I want to go out next Tuesday night (which I've done for weeks and weeks); I'm not sure if I want to stay in College Town this weekend. I'm not sure if I want to talk to anyone for the next six to eight months, although I have to be at work in ten hours, so I guess I don't have much of a choice.
I give up.
Labels: boys, drama, my insanity
posted by nicalyse @ 2:04 AM
2 Comments:
Noooooooooooooooooo! No giving up! You're too awesome to be in a funk. :( *hugs*
Did I talk to you before or after this? I haven't talked to you since. Back to the other posts to find out how you are.
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