Accidental Ambivalence

Back Among the Living

In five days, I will be officially moved back to Small Town. Currently, my bedroom contains my bed, nightstand and lamp, television, and the laundry basket that I am living out of. The bed isn't going with me. My life isn't here any more.

Things of note: Next Tuesday I will have my "final" Piano Bar Tuesday night. It's been months since I've gone - my last experience wasn't exactly a positive one. Hershey - who I, of course, haven't eradicated from my life - is now their in-house drummer. The evening has potential to be interesting on that basis, but more so due to the fact that I will be out with Spark and whomever else decides to attend with me. The only thing that could make the evening's plans better would be if Bradshaw were able to attend.

Wednesday morning will mark my last before I head back home. So excited am I about that first night in my own house (!) again that I've already made plans. There will be grocery shopping and kitty snuggling and nudity. I am going to make myself a pizza and I may enjoy a tipple or two. I have every intention of baking something delicious and completely terrible for me - in short, I'm looking forward.

I read somewhere that anticiption and anxiety are simply the manifestation of living in the future rather than in the moment. True enough, I think, but it's not always something one can control. I cannot help how excited I am, and I don't want to. Yes, there are certainly people who I will miss seeing every day. But they aren't people that I will never see again, and it isn't as if keeping in touch will be an issue - I'm less than two hours away!

I choose to stop writing now and leave you with the promise of more cohesive, well-thought posts at a later date. At the moment, I am simply too distracted to write you something of substance and focus. Forgive me.

Also, because I am very pleased with it: I bought a laptop. It is black and shiny and allows me to write to you from the library and other excellent places.

Labels: Small Town, updates

posted by nicalyse @ 6:14 PM