Things I Learned
There are times when traditional worries have to be thrown out the window. Money, propriety, your own personal comfort; things like these become moot when someone is really counting on you.Friday night, I spent an hour standing outside talking to Gallagher because she needed it.
Saturday night, I spent two hours cleaning my living room just so that Bradshaw would have a safe place to be when she got here. That's right, Bradshaw made an appearance in College Town. As much as the entire thing was for her, there's no way that she can recognize what she did for my spirit as well. I love that girl. She has been there for me and done so much for me that nothing I could ever give her - time, money, objects - could ever begin to scratch the surface of what I owe. She is amazing.
Tonight, I did something that took me out of my own comfort zone and was socially inappropriate. When Gallagher was hurting, I made a point of contacting the person who could help her, the person that she really wanted to be there, even as I tried to fill in. I contacted him, I guilt-tripped him, and I threw any chance he and I have of being comfortable acquaintances out the window. I did this because it was what she needed, and having been in the place that she's in now, I wouldn't be able to sleep tonight if I hadn't made every effort to make this day better for her. It worked, and I don't feel even a little bit bad about it.
For the first time in a long time, I truly feel good about myself as a person. It feels good to be able to say that, and despite the fact that I have an apologetic and explanatory phone call to make tomorrow, I don't regret it even a little bit.
Labels: Bradshaw, everyday musings, girl stuff
posted by nicalyse @ 11:11 PM
2 Comments:
You owe me nothing. You were exactly what I needed this weekend. I feel so much better, trying to describe it would make a mockery of what I actually feel.
And you've always been a good person. I'm glad you were able to help her, as she is probably running out of people she can depend on (from what you tell me, anyway). If the two of you need to get out of there, you know you have a place to stay here.
Love you.
Good for you, Nic. If what you did was for the best, then there's no reason why you SHOULD feel bad about it. It sounds like you're a pretty amazing friend. But I already knew that cause you're pretty amazing in general. ^_^
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